“Who am I?”
As a naturally introspective soul, I ask myself this question almost daily. Why? I realize this: because I like to answer this question with my actions, my words, my thoughts throughout the day. (Certainly, I can fail at answering my question in an honorable way at times. I’m human.)
Asking this question, “Who am I?,” is an effective way to get me motivated to try to turn from my proclivities towards sin and disorder and to turn towards grace and order. And my God (quite literally, my God) do I need the latter.
At the beginning and at the end of the day, the simplest answer to this recurrent existential question that takes laps in my mind is this: I am a beloved daughter of the King, of Our Lord God. And, O, what freedom that truth alone sets to my spirit!
At Mass yesterday– the Feast of Our Lady of the Rosary– I heard this beautiful quote in the homily:
“She had living within her He Who the entire universe could not contain.”
The universe holds its very creator in Jesus, in a young unwed girl named Mary. Wow. Wrap your head around that.
Not only that, but THIS: While the “universe cannot contain Him,” my heart, my very flesh, can contain Him after Communion at Mass! He allows this. This actually somehow mysteriously happens after receiving Jesus in the Holy Eucharist!
This begs me to introspect and ask myself: Am I being a worthy tabernacle? After I am fed by Him, do I feed Him to others? Do I announce the Gospel of my Lord? Do I go in peace, and glorify Him with my life?
Moreover, like St. Ignatius of Antioch, who died a martyr for the Faith literally fed to the lions, am I able to willingly suffer and sacrifice for Our Lord? Am I a living oblation for Him?
And as a Catholic twenty-something in this day and age, it can be VERY hard to defend God, or the Faith, without fear (thinking: “man, if I speak up, I’m certainly food for the lions”). We live in a very secular, “politically correct,” morally relative world, and suffering and sacrificing by even just speaking the truth (in charity, of course) can be difficult (understatement). But we must remind ourselves…
When we come to the Eucharistic table at Holy Mass, we have living within us He who the universe cannot contain.
We have Christ in us. We need not be afraid.