God has always been in my life; He has come into my life in His own ways, big and small. In meeting Him, and becoming close to Him, He began to shape my heart so that it would be content with only Him and Him alone– most particularly, in the Holy Eucharist.
Eventually, it was God Himself who graced me with the gift to become keenly aware of that spiritual hunger within me for Him. Like Fr. Andre Louf, OCSD says, “The day comes when a hunger and thirst for the living God are born within him and, over and above all earthly sustenance, are engraved into his body.” Every corner of my soul and every inch of my body needs the nourishment of God– most particularly, in the Heavenly Bread that comes down to earth!
By the grace and mercy of God, I believe that I know all too well what this hunger for Him is. It means that no matter how busy my life is, no matter how confusing, no matter how chaotic, Jesus Christ is there, my Bridegroom, waiting for me, pining for me to receive Him there at the altar at Mass. He is waiting for us to become one: to fill me with His True Presence, and to receive me totally also. How could I ever forget Him? And yet, my fallen nature inclines me to do so.
I fervently desire to be like one of the Ten Virgins waiting for the Bridegroom in the middle of the night. They were prepared. Their lamps were lit. Moreover, those lamps burned all the night through. The Ten Virgins had enough grace, trust, faith, hope, and love to wait for their Bridegroom and to be ready to join Him at any moment’s time. It was in their lack of sleep and in their waiting with joy with their lights burning brightly, that they went to meet the Bridegroom.
Like the Ten Virgins, may I always have hope that Love Himself will surely come find me! And may I always be ready, holy and pure, to meet Him.